I was searching for ideas that would be interesting to write about in the next blog due for Wednesday. I kept thinking about what my biggest fears were, or how I would not want to die, but that is pretty depressing to me. I thought about highschool and what I remembered most about my highschool career. Obviously, my friends played a huge role. They are like my sisters/brothers, and are all very close to my heart, and always will be. Then, I thought about all the past relationships I've been in with guys, and how everytime I always thought that I loved them - until it ended, and started a new relationship with someone else. Even though "I love you" was said from time to time, it was really never meant in that certain way. I found that I had caring feelings, but was never in love with any of them. There is nothing, said or done, that I regret in my life because one can only learn from previous relationships to see what they need or desire for the next one. On a positive note, I now only say "I love you" (to a boyfriend) when I feel it's genuine, and the timing is right. Also, I was able to learn what kind of guys I generally am attracted to- not in just a physical sense, but personality or attitude as well. Sadly, the jocky, cocky, jerky types were my cup of tea. Now, if you're not nice, or a gentleman I won't waste my time. That's so important in my opinion- to be respectful and caring to your girl or girlfriend however your status stands. Open the door for her, tell her she looks beautiful even if she is in sweatpants and a t-shirt, ask her about her day, kiss her on her forehead- those kind of things I love. It's the small things that say 1,000 words.